Of course my dad would make me feel like shit just when I’m starting to feel better
took a depression test online
here are the results
Major Depression: Extremely High
Dysthymia: Very High
Bipolar Disorder: Very Slight
Cyclothymia: Slight-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder: High
Postpartum Depression: N/A
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i fucking miss cutting
I made the most stupid mistake ever
My mum found my blade and she threw it away
yesterday I went to bed around 1am
I fell asleep around 5
I couldn’t stop thinking
then when my mom woke me up to go to school I couldn’t stop crying
and she asked me what do I want to do with my life
I said I’d just kill myself
she laughed and told me to get ready
thanks mom
I wish I wanted to stop cutting
I know it’s a bad habit but I really like it
It’s 4am and I should be asleep but I don’t want to sleep cause then I’ll have to go to school and I don’t want to but I’ve been missing school for like a month now and my exams are in a few months and my parents are really starting to regret my existence
So I should really sleep and go to school and study
But
No
It’s a lot better to completely screw my life
I literally just have to hold on till may and then I can go
you have two options :
- get some help, like a therapist
- force them to go to school anyway, no matter how much they cry, and ignore them when they tell you how bad they feel
my parents being nice human beings
decided to go with the second option.
oh how I love them
